Here Is My Story

From a very young age, I have always felt a deep spiritual connection. I knew that there was more to life than our everyday reality. Although I never grew up religious, I felt a deep undeniable bond with my spirituality, God, and Jesus- as if I instinctively knew that this was my true "home." Ever since I can remember, I’ve always experienced very frequent, if not daily, visions, clear intuitions and inner knowing’s, premonitions, and dreams that came true. I also had an innate ability to read people’s deeper emotions, energies, and lives. This spiritual sensitivity became a guiding force in my life, it was a gift from God.

I deeply feared sharing my beliefs and gifts, thinking I would be treated like a complete outcast, so I only told the people closest to me. I couldn’t stop these experiences even if I wanted to, and I would never want to, as they are an integral part of who I am.

I began exploring spirituality on my own at a very young age because of my gifts. I prayed, read books, discovered crystals and their properties, pulled oracle cards, learned about the Law of Attraction, and felt a strong calling to attend church, despite having no prior experience or formal teaching. I always believed that everyone had the gifts and ability that I was born with, and some people were just suppressing it much more than others. From a young age, I just somehow knew that the "norm" wasn't necessarily meant for me.

Growing up with two parents who struggled with medically diagnosed mental illness and personality disorders, I was a child who had normalized that dynamic. Moving into my teen years, I retreated into my dream life, expecting to meet my prince charming and live a life in complete contrast to what I had seen growing up. At this time, I naturally gravitated towards creating a vision board. I didn’t know what vision boards were at the time, but I took all of my Seventeen magazines I had collected, clipped words, pictures, and phrases, and began to put together a beautiful collage of all the things I loved, enjoyed, and wanted out of life. I hung it up on my wall, not realizing the power it held. Little did I know, all of the things I placed on my board would manifest within one year. I began to find my own independence and started competing in Miss Connecticut pageants and choreographing dance shows at my high school, where I felt in control of my life. I was living life to the fullest, enjoying my hobbies and social life. I had graduated high school feeling confident, independent, and self-aligned. I knew who I was and where I wanted to go. Then, I thought I had met my prince charming, and it seemed as though my future was falling into place.

After a decade of being in the relationship, I had earned a theoretical PhD in experiencing life with a Narcissistic partner. Wavering between two steps forward and two steps back, I eventually made it out of the relationship. I found myself alone, fearful of starting over, and carrying around all of the broken pieces of myself. I felt completely detached from the woman I was before entering the relationship. I wondered if I ever really knew myself.

I began trying to process all the traumatic events and abuse that occurred and how it shaped me. I found myself grieving who I used to be and the relationship that I once believed in. I felt angry, sad, embarrassed, full of shame and guilt, afraid of what other people thought of me. I was in a constant state of fear or worry. I didn’t feel happy with where I was in life. I couldn’t trust that I would experience true happiness, or even love again. While my friends were focused on marriage and children, I realized I needed to focus on discovering my true self first. I decided I needed to “date myself” in order to begin to truly heal.

I realized that walking on eggshells and devoting endless empathy, loyalty, and effort to others were among many self-defeating coping skills I developed in order to endure my toxic relationships, family and love life included. All of my life, I had been surrounded by others who were medically diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, OCD, Anxiety, and Depression. I was constantly pleasing others in fear of upsetting them or being unliked. I avoided speaking my truth in fear of being judged, ridiculed, mocked, punished, or gaslighted, and let my inner critic run the show.

I felt like an empty vessel after my breakup and did not know where I belonged in the world. I realized that emotional and psychological abuse had trampled on my own self-worth. While I had been trying to find balance, importance, and value through my relationships, I discovered I needed to create those things for myself. That’s when I began my journey towards reclaiming my identity and re-writing my story. I deeply knew God, Jesus, my guides and angels had my back the whole time. I went through all of this for a reason, and there were many circumstances where I knew I was divinely protected.

I had to take control of my mindset, change my thought patterns, and free myself of limiting beliefs. I began to trust myself to define my own core values and boundaries. My journey to self-discovery led to a growing sense of self-worth and value as an individual. I had chosen self-love, leading me to feel excitement, confidence, happiness, and hope! I was able to experience the world through a completely different lens, and it felt so liberating and freeing. I can recognize and keep myself safe from unhealthy relationships. I know who I am. I feel proud of who I am. I was able to let go of past pains and align with my true purpose, my soul mission. Spiritual practices such as prayer, meditation, etc. played a beautiful role in my recovery and personal growth, helping me heal emotionally and enhancing my overall well-being and sense of fulfillment. Integrating spirituality into my healing journey allowed me to connect deeply with my inner self and higher power, providing clarity and strength.

During this time, I began to experience another profound level of my spiritual awakening. I was experiencing an ego death, where the old versions of myself faded away, making room for the new version of myself to come forward. These experiences deepened my belief that we are all souls living a human experience, constantly evolving and regenerating. I realized that my spiritual gifts, such as my intuition and supernatural abilities, were tools given to me by God to not only guide myself but also to help others navigate their own life-challenging transitions.

After countless hours, many long days and nights, and a culmination of years of research, education, and studying, I dedicated my time to my self-growth, life-long education, faith, and personal development. My spiritual growth involved attending church and more daily prayer, studying tarot, astrology, and reading books on spirituality. While I didn’t necessarily need these tools to tap into my gifts, they significantly enhanced my journey. I embraced these practices while remaining open to my own beliefs and not confined by others' imposed religious or spiritual frameworks. My intuition is a powerful force flowing through my feminine energy & has guided me every step of the way. It adds depth and intention to every aspect of my life!

Now, I no longer worry about being labeled as an "outcast" or what others might think of my journey! I have such love and understanding for every soul. I recognize that we are all on unique paths, each with different levels of awakening, and that we can't all learn the same lessons at the same time. While I deeply respect others' views and opinions, I trust that those who are meant to resonate with my path will naturally find their way to me. I now work with beautiful souls from all over the world who have endured toxic and unhealthy relationships. This is why I created my program, RECLAIMED, to help those in need, when I wished I would have had this roadmap after I had got out of my toxic relationship. Whether you are someone who isn’t into spirituality but is eager to reclaim your life, or you’re open to incorporating spiritual practices into your healing journey, I’m here for you every step of the way!

I've always been a dreamer and a visionary, constantly pushing the boundaries of what's possible, transforming my life and reinventing myself in ways I never knew were possible—and as a double Scorpio, isn’t that what we're known for?! The rise of the Phoenix! It never ends (Those who know—know.) I love it.

I ended up re-writing the story of my life! I am living my life’s purpose, I feel aligned each and every day! I found true happiness. Understanding that nobody including myself is “perfect”, I have recognized that I absolutely can create and experience healthy loving relationships. I am experiencing beautiful and amazing new adventures; meeting sensational people from all over the world and in all walks of life! I am enjoying life to the fullest, and here I am, believing in and living a better future than I had EVER imagined, and you can too. I am living a vibrant, happy, healthy, life that aligns with my core values and purpose, and I would love to help you discover yours.

I want you to know that I see you… I hear you… Even if we have not yet spoken, I understand. You are not alone.

YOU my friend, are whole and worthy of everything you want in life. YOU deserve respect, appreciation, love, kindness, and connection. YOU deserve the opportunity to write a new chapter and beginning in your beautiful story, and it IS possible.

I’m here to remind you that YOUR being, existence, experience, and stories MATTER, and that you have the ability to let your soul SHINE and to not let your past define you, but to allow yourself to define your story.

If you are ready to unearth and own your truest self, then coaching with me may be right for you! I am ready to take your hand and support you each step of the way.

Lots of love,

Brandy xo